My name is Don Gordon BELL and I am one of the earliest of the first generation of KAD's (Korean ADoptees). The Korean War had been settled by Armistice three years before I left war-torn Seoul, Korea, on May 21, 1956. It was the first plane of twelve 'war babies' processed thru the Harry Holt Adoption Program. Read more of MY STORY on My Pages.
I grew up in a typical middle-class family of English-Scottish roots in greater Los Angeles, Ca, USA. Memories faded, Korean language was 'lost' and I did not know anything about the country of my birth until I met Korean Marines in Vietnam while serving with the US Marines. It was my first exposure to real Korean people. I was not completely aware of how prejudiced most Koreans thought towards a Half-Breed like me. I learned what "Tuigi" meant, a Korean word for a "Child of a Foreign devil". Oh, wonderful.

All my life I always had to answer the question: "What ARE you?" and I simply would tell 'my story'. It was not a big deal for me, for my Adoptive Parents had taught me that being an American meant that WE were from many countries. I never 'wished to be White' and just learned to stand up for my own identity. MY Identity was as an American, with mixed heritage. I did not know what being "Korean" meant but often wondered about my roots, and what my birth father's ethnicity. Mexican, Native Americans, and Spanish people would tell me that I had their 'genes' for sure. Little did I know they were right!

After college, I traveled to Manila and for ten years I lived in the Philippines. I was excepted as a 'mestizo' and fit into the former Spanish colony. I was a B-movie Character Actor,
working on international and local films, enjoying a 'crazy and wild' abandonment. Then a life changing experience gave me faith in a personal Higher Being. After walking away from the film business, I lived back in the USA, not sure of my direction in life finding work in construction, finish carpentry, door hanging, and many other jobs I'd like to forget.

In 1991, at 38, I attended a Holt Heritage Camp that was a great experience and really began my own journey of Adoption Identity search. I had never thought much of my Korean culture, though I always felt proud of being "HALF-Korean" and "half-Something".

In 1994 I came back to Seoul, Korea, with my church Vineyard Christian Fellowship, and was invited to stay with a church in East Seoul, for one year. I have lived here since late 1995- re-discovering my "Korean-ness", teaching English and telling my Adoption Story to thousands of Korean students of all ages, helping their understanding of Korean Adoptees. It is one of the issues that Korea is now facing, even for its own secretly adopted children, those who were adopted IN-Country by Koreans who desired a family but due to problems with Infertility secretly adopt.

I was a charter member in 1997 (first dozen members) of GOA'L (Global Overseas Adoptees' Link, founded by Ami Nafzger) and continue to be involved with the complex issues of This Thing of Ours-Adoption. Thousands of KADs have visited Korea over the years, searching for their culture and Some search for birth family. Seventy-five thousand have come, yet only 2,400 plus have found Reunion with Birth family, often with varying results. There are many complexities, many don't want to search concerned about offending their Adoptive Families. Each KAD must decide what they want to do, when to do it, etc.

At 61, I am still 'working thru' my Adoption Identity. Each of YOU need to 'work through' your own understanding and hopefully find forgiveness and healing. Read many different accounts and compare before coming to conclusions. I hope that you will learn what IS happening NOW, in the land of your birth, the Rep. of Korea (South Korea). (See Report Links).

Times are changing, the reasons for 'relinquishment for adoption' have shifted, but there continues to be a need for a multi-tiered approach and understanding of Adoption issues. Slowly, attitudes of Korean society ARE changing for the better. But, the majority continue to feel embarrassment and shame. Thus, Adoption is still shrouded in secrecy even for those who are adopted In-country. There ARE positive signs and movements of NGO's and KAD groups are advocating for the Unwed Mothers. However, two-thirds of pregnant women each year, continue to give up their babies for adoption. One out of four are sent overseas, YET three are secretly adopted in-country. The Myth that "Koreans don't adopt" is false, but they need to open up and hopefully change their shame to pride.

This blog is for EVERYONE, whether you are an Adoptee, Adoptive Family, Birth Family or involved in Adoption in ANY way as a professional, social worker, official, etc, from Korea or the world. We examine the complex issues and personal journeys that we, domestic and overseas adoptees, have to face and sort out in This Thing of Ours-Adoption. (Use the Ligit Search function (Left Column) to check for Posts on various topics, TransRacial, TranCultural, MultiCultural families, Domestic, Civil Code Law Adoptions, InterCountry Adoption, etc.)
I personally have come to a compromised, nuanced position on this thing of ours-adoption. I advocate a Multi-tiered Plan that tries to be balanced, realistic, fair to all.

UPDATE: Living in the Philippines since 2010, at first teaching students from several countries as an Online Tutor, based in Makati, Metro Manila. I was working on a Digital Library for Online Tutoring or ELearning; developing an agritourism farm; and Overseas Retirement Care for foreigners needing 24/7 health care.

Then some 18 months ago, in July of 2012 I met with Andrew Leavold, a crazy film obsessed Aussie who helped "pull me back into film making".

WHEW! Lot on my plate. I have also been learning much about the Filipino society's very different viewpoints on unwed motherhood and adoption.

Latest: As of Sept. 2012, I worked on an Indie Film, "Baybayin, the Palawan Script", directed by Auraeus Solito, and international award winning Filipino director. I had a role in the film and explored my hobby as a STILLS Photographer. Currently I have quit all teaching, co-writing on an international film that will be done in 3D and CGI effects. I am back in the film-making business and I love it.

Adoption Discourse needs to hear YOUR VOICE. Every opinion, even opposing viewpoints will be posted and interaction invited by email and Comments have been activated again with spam filters!)
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October 6, 2009

Balance? What Balance!

balance scales

What does it mean to be balanced? We get the origin from the Latin words "Bi" and "lanx" meaning '2 metal pans'. You know the scale with pans that 'balances' in the middle to show equal parts in weight. So Balance could mean equality of the parts of a whole. Hey I flunked a math class and was about to be drafted so I enlisted in the US Marines! I think I understand “Equal Parts of a Whole” means each one is equal to the other.

The Korean War Baby believes that to have Balanced Views we need ALL the facts, opinions, stories, etc. from ALL the people involved in "This Thing of Ours-Adoption". Some call it a Adoption Triad, counting Adoptee, Birth 'People'/Family, and Adoptive People/Family but there are many more that are Part of the Whole. Governments, Court Advocates, Social Workers, Police Dept., Adoption Agencies, United Nations, Hague Convention, Religious Leaders, Women's Rights groups, Children's Rights, YOU COULD GO ON and ON.

Every group has some part and influence on "This Thing of Ours-Adoption". Perhaps you are wondering why do I borrow a "La Cosa Nostra" term "This Thing of Ours" when speaking of the Mafia organization. I see Adoption as well very Organized and Powerful but Not just Evil. Some may see adoption as Child Laundering or stealing; others as the greatest thing since 'sliced bread' (showing my age). WELL, the entire SPECTRUM has extremes and everything in between.

Why Balance with "THEM"?

Getting back to BALANCE...In order to find balance you have to have EQUALITY. The pie must be cut into many Equal parts and ALL parts should listen and learn from the others. No one group should say "Only our view is right". There are many sides, more than a Triad, involved and affecting the Balance.

Balancing New Tires

When you buy new Tires each must be Balanced on a machine, with small weights added to some parts of the rim. If tires are not balanced as the tire spins faster at higher speeds any small IMbalance is magnified and produces bouncing, shaking and can cause a really rough ride or tires to blow.

SEE, all 'players' in this game of life should/must/can be IN balance with the others. If we truly hear and read all the stories we might even come to a Balanced Opinion that would truly seek the Best solution from case to case. Can anyone argue with that?

It begins with listening to ALL stories from the horrible to the wonderful-there is the complete spectrum aspect; sorting fact from fiction; comparing the differences; analyzing all the data. It takes hard work, it takes dedication, it takes wanting to find Balance.

Without Balance Adoption will continue to be a bumpy, bouncy, rough ride, just waiting to 'blow out'.

The Korean War Baby

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